I really wanted to post an update last night(mainly to save you from looking at Chandler in his underwear one more time), but I was so tired. We had our school musical on Saturday night which went really well. I will post pictures later, and then afterwards we went out to dinner to celebrate my mom's birthday which is today. Happy Birthday Mom! On Sunday, I went to visit my dad and give Katja a chance to go to the market. It is so sad to see my dad suffering this way. I love to go there, don't get me wrong, and I totally want to go, it is just hard. He is going to the doctor today and I'm sure he will need another transfusion. He is so weak. He can barely stand without fainting, and his nose was bleeding again off and on. The doctors are going to stop the radiation and chemo for a while to give him a chance to get his strength back. I think that is the hardest part for him, because just last month he was totally fine. Later that night, I went to my nanny's house and bought her some things from Trader Joes. It is hard for my nanny too, because she is not getting as much attention and help as she is used to from Katja and me. If I would have written last night, I would have sounded so downcast, and I was. David made me come to bed and get some sleep. As I was resting, the Lord brought these verses to my mind to encourage me.
Matt 11:28 "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."
1 Peter 5:7 "casting all your anxiety on him because He cares for you."
I felt so much better knowing that the God who made the world, and is sustaining it right now cares for me. Not because I am worthy or deserving, but because He is good and it is his nature, and He has all the power to do it, and He never grows weary or tired. I feel so much better this morning. When I am weak then I am strong.
Here is an amazing prayer from "The Valley of Vision." They always pray better than I do, and I love reading what they say. It is called "Resting On God."
O God Most High, Most Glorious,
The thought of thine infinite serenity cheers me,
For I am toiling and moiling, troubled and distressed,
but thou art for ever at perfect peace.
Thy designs cause thee no fear or care of unfulfilment,
they stand fast as the eternal hills.
Thy power knows no bound,
thy goodness no stint,
Thou bringest order out of confusion,
and my defeats are Thy victories:
The Lord God omnipotent reigneth.
I come to thee as a sinner with cares and sorrows,
to leave every concern entirely to Thee,
every sin calling for Christ's precious blood;
Revive deep spirituality in my heart;
Let me live near to the great shepherd,
hear his voice, know its tones, follow its calls.
Keep me from deception by causing me to abide in the truth,
from harm by helping me to walk in the power of the Spirit.
Give me intenser faith in the eternal verities,
burning into me by experience the things I know;
Let me never be ashamed of the truth of the gospel,
that I may bear its reproach,
see Jesus as its essence,
know in it the power of the Spirit.
Lord, help me for I am often lukewarm and chill;
unbelief mars my confidence,
sin makes me forget Thee.
Let the weeds that grow in my soul be cut at their roots;
Grant me to know that I truly live only when I live to thee,
that all else is trifiling.
Thy presence alone can make me holy, devout, strong and happy.
Abide in me, gracious God.
Well, I know this post was super long, but I wanted to share my heart, and I hope you enjoyed reading that prayer as much as I do.
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