Pet Scan Results

About a week ago after calling the doctor several times, she finally called us back. The reason it took so long was that there was some question about the results of the PET scan. The results came back positive, but she wasn't sure why. There was activity in the stomach area. The doctor is pretty convinced that what is showing up isn't Hodgkins because that type of cancer follows a logical progression and this isn't in the pattern. She wanted another week to let some other doctors look it over because she had never seen this kind of result. We called again earlier this week and I guess the other radiologists or doctors also decided the results were positive, so David will have an Endoscopy this coming Wednesday to get a better picture of what is going on in his stomach. They can't redo the PET because it is too much radiation. Right now the doctor thinks it could just be a false positive, but we need to check it out. Even though we have been through this before, the waiting and not being anxious is always the hardest part. This time the wait seems extra long. The good news is that in God's sovereign plan the both times we have had to wait for test results have been Easter and Christmas. I think it is a blessing that they have come on these two dates because it is so easy to remember that God loved us so much that he sent his only son to die for us. This gives David and I hope because we realize that this world is not our home and we have an eternity with God to look forward to. Romans 8:8 says,"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us."

Yesterday I was reading this song from the album Come Weary Saints.

Shall I take from Your hand Your blessings
Yet not welcome any pain
Shall I thank you for days of sunshine
Yet grumble in days of rain
Shall I love you in times of plenty
Then leave you in days of drought
Shall I trust when I reap a harvest
But when winter winds blow than doubt

Oh let Your will be done in me
In your love I will abide
Oh I long for nothing else as long
As you are glorified

Are you good only when I prosper
And true only when I'm filled
Are you King only when I'm carefree
And God only when I'm well
You are good when I'm poor and needy
You are true when I'm parched and dry
You still reign in the deepest valley
You're still God in the darkest night

So quiet my restless heart
Quiet my restless heart
Quiet my restless heart in You.

I like the last line of the song for me especially. Quiet my restless heart in You. One of the ways this week that I have been calm is because I have just been super busy with life and so it is easy not to think about it. I have been able to discipline my mind to not let my thoughts wander to the worst case scenario...but, I think God wants more than that from me. He wants me not only not to worry, but to quiet my heart in Him. To "consider it all joy" as James says in 1:2. So if you read this and want to pray for us this week, obviously our desire is that the Pet scan is a false positive and nothing is wrong, but more importantly we truly want to have faith in God's perfect plan and know that no matter what, because of Christ, the result is good for us.