Monday, September 21, 2009
On Saturday night we drove to the Casting Crowns/ Matt Redman concert in Westlake. I love Casting Crowns because I think the lyrics to their songs are so meaningful and so many of the songs encouraged me during our trial. (Praise you in this Storm, Voice of Truth etc.) Anyway, while we were in the car, David leaned over to me and said, "Do you realize that the last time we saw them in concert, I had cancer and didn't know it yet." I think we went a few weeks before he was diagnosed. The last concerts we went to were Steven Curtis Chapman and Third Day. Those were in the weeks after his positive PET scan when they found activity in his stomach and we thought he may have stomach cancer. Concerts for us have been a strange time of reflection because we have gone in certain times of life where you have to ask yourself, "Do I really believe these songs I am singing?" This concert was no different. I thought to myself as we were waiting for it to start about all the times people have asked me, "What do you think God was teaching you through this trial? Or how is your life different now?" There are really so many answers I could give, but one of the main ones Matt Redman summed up in a song I heard for the first time that night called "You Never Let Go" It is the song playing on my playlist now, and I really like it. When I chose the title for this blog "In God's Hands," I didn't know what the outcome of our trial would be would be, but I knew God is Good and Faithful and he would always keep us in his hands. Even though there would be times I would sin and doubt and worry and fear, I knew God would never let go, because He doesn't change and he is always faithful. He is God. He will Never Let Go. I hope you enjoy this song too.