David got out of his almost most embarrassing moment yesterday. I don't know how he got so lucky. He decided to work from home for a few hours and then he was going to take the 9:00am train into work. He normally leaves at 5:00am, but he was tired. Anyway, he got completely dressed, but he was wearing black slippers because he was at home working from the computer and didn't want to wear his work shoes in the house. When it came time to leave he actually left the house in his slippers, and then his boss called to tell him not to bother and just telecommute. He came back in the house to tell me he was staying home wearing his gun belt and everything. It was only then when he went to take off his shoes that he realized he had almost gone to work in his slippers. How did he escape??? I would have loved to be in the office that day!
The yummy food! Avrielle hunting for eggs. Relaxing in the sun. Charissa and her friend Mike. David taking a turn at the BBQ We celebrated Easter at my dad and Katja's house. This was the first year having Easter without my dad there. Even though the dates are different, he died the day before Easter last year, so we were all busy making the funeral plans. Dave had to take over the barbecuing this year which he was not totally comfortable with, but the food came out awesome. ( He had lots of help from Carissa's friend Mike.) Overall, we had a really relaxing afternoon. I am thankful for these traditions that we have to spend time together with family.
Getting to meet her mentor, Nicolette. Chan and Steven During Easter break all the younger swimmers on the swim team were paired up with an older mentor. We had a kick off at the pool where Avrielle and Chandler got to meet their swimming big brother and big sister. They were both so excited to get to know them and learn some tips from them. Avrielle's mentor even brought her a little treat.
The gastroenterologist from USC called last night and said that the biopsy shows no cancer. We are so relieved and thankful. We appreciated your prayers so much again this week as we had to think through all the "What if " scenarios. God did give us peace and helped us to trust Him through your encouragement and reading His word.
David had the endoscopy yesterday, and he is doing great. The doctor didn't seem that concerned about anything she saw. She biopsied the two areas to send to the lab and we will know the final results in about a week.
About a week ago after calling the doctor several times, she finally called us back. The reason it took so long was that there was some question about the results of the PET scan. The results came back positive, but she wasn't sure why. There was activity in the stomach area. The doctor is pretty convinced that what is showing up isn't Hodgkins because that type of cancer follows a logical progression and this isn't in the pattern. She wanted another week to let some other doctors look it over because she had never seen this kind of result. We called again earlier this week and I guess the other radiologists or doctors also decided the results were positive, so David will have an Endoscopy this coming Wednesday to get a better picture of what is going on in his stomach. They can't redo the PET because it is too much radiation. Right now the doctor thinks it could just be a false positive, but we need to check it out. Even though we have been through this before, the waiting and not being anxious is always the hardest part. This time the wait seems extra long. The good news is that in God's sovereign plan the both times we have had to wait for test results have been Easter and Christmas. I think it is a blessing that they have come on these two dates because it is so easy to remember that God loved us so much that he sent his only son to die for us. This gives David and I hope because we realize that this world is not our home and we have an eternity with God to look forward to. Romans 8:8 says,"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us."
Yesterday I was reading this song from the album Come Weary Saints.
Shall I take from Your hand Your blessings Yet not welcome any pain Shall I thank you for days of sunshine Yet grumble in days of rain Shall I love you in times of plenty Then leave you in days of drought Shall I trust when I reap a harvest But when winter winds blow than doubt
Oh let Your will be done in me In your love I will abide Oh I long for nothing else as long As you are glorified
Are you good only when I prosper And true only when I'm filled Are you King only when I'm carefree And God only when I'm well You are good when I'm poor and needy You are true when I'm parched and dry You still reign in the deepest valley You're still God in the darkest night
So quiet my restless heart Quiet my restless heart Quiet my restless heart in You.
I like the last line of the song for me especially. Quiet my restless heart in You. One of the ways this week that I have been calm is because I have just been super busy with life and so it is easy not to think about it. I have been able to discipline my mind to not let my thoughts wander to the worst case scenario...but, I think God wants more than that from me. He wants me not only not to worry, but to quiet my heart in Him. To "consider it all joy" as James says in 1:2. So if you read this and want to pray for us this week, obviously our desire is that the Pet scan is a false positive and nothing is wrong, but more importantly we truly want to have faith in God's perfect plan and know that no matter what, because of Christ, the result is good for us.
Last night we went to Grammy Micki's and Papa Rick's house to have Passover. I always like how this holiday is meant for the children to remind them about how amazing and good God is and all he has done for us not only many years ago, but today as well.
My nanny specifically ordered hamburgers for dinner. She ate the whole thing! Frozen lemonade ice-cream pie. So refreshing! It would have been better if the weather cooperated. Katja, Carissa, and Avrielle
We are still waiting for the results of David's PET scan. He had it a few weeks ago, but we are learning to be patient and trust in the Lord. The doctor is still looking it over and I'm sure we will hear back soon.
I am happily married to my beloved and my friend, David, and I am a mom to my precious children, Avrielle and Chandler. I started this blog in January,2008 as a way to keep our friends and family updated when my husband was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma. Little did I know that my dad, a non smoker, would be diagnosed with lung cancer also only two weeks later. My dad passed away on March 22, 2008, only 2 1/2 months after his diagnosis. These last few months have been a trial, but God has been good and faithful, and kept us in His hands.
We added a guest book at the bottom of the blog page. Please sign it and add a picture if you would like. It is really easy, I promise! We would love to see who is out there reading. Love, The Smith Family
Chandler: "Mom, could I just marry my sister? That way I don't have to kiss anybody new."
Avrielle: As we are trying to find my car in the crowded parking lot, "There it is mom, I memorized your licence placemat."
Mom to Avrielle: "It's time to brush your teeth." Avrielle: "May I appeal, I need to defrost more from waking up."
Mom to Chandler: "If you're not thankful for your dinner, maybe I should take it away, and all you will have to eat is some bread." Chandler: "Sounds great!" Mom: " Ok, since that didn't work, How about if we take away all your toys too, so you will see how much you have to be thankful for..." Chandler: "I'll just play with my bread!"
Chandler as he is trying to throw a dirty kleenex into the trashcan. "He shoots, (it lands on top of Avrielle's head) He SCORES!!!
Wow Avrielle, that was a quick shower. Did you wash your hair? "I only put conditioner on it, because I washed it last night and I just needed to remind it that it had been washed already so it will obey me this morning."
Chandler: "Dad, could you please make sure you take the right sandwich to work tomorrow? I don't wan't you to leave the healthy one for me by mistake."
Chandler: Can you not put gel in my hair this morning? If I get it cut later, it will hurt because it will be like they are cutting through a wall of steel!
Chandler at Trader Joes: Why does nanny have to take so long reading every label in the freezer aisle? Can't it be the "try out" aisle instead???
Chandler telling a story at dinner: "Not yesterday, but the yesterday before..."
Mom to Chandler: Your closet is a mess. Yeah, I know, it's always an adventure because I get to find new undiscovered sightings. Mom: What kind of undiscovered sightings? Well, you know, like, I'll put something in there when I'm seven and then discover it again when I'm fourteen.
Mom to Chandler: What is the most important thing you learned from Papa? He taught me never to hit people with the golf ball when I'm chipping.
Mom to Avrielle: What is your favorite memory with Papa? He took me to the American Girl Store, and walked all around with me explaining the history of all the dolls until I found the one I wanted.
Chandler, What does it mean to store up treasures in heaven? Well, it's like God has cubbies for each person, and when you do something that pleases Him, He puts a trophy in your cubby."
Chandler after hearing the bedtime story of Corderoy. "Mom, some stories are so good, I feel like I want to cry inside when I hear them."
How do you like the pistachio Chandler? It's sort of medium low on the scale of goodness.
Chandler while looking at a pre -cancer picture of David, "Wow Dad, I don't remember that you used to have an afro!"
Chandler, you need to wipe the chocolate off your face! Do I have to mom? If I leave it on, I can taste it again later!
Avrielle while watching Taming of the Shrew in the park: "I love the play mom, but which one is William Shakespeare?"
Chandler: Mom, can you please buy some more string cheese? It really puts you to work! Mom: I thought you don't like doing hard work. I love hard work when it comes to my food!
Chandler to mom: "Do I have to open my Christmas presents? I want to warm up to the day first."
Avrielle watching Taming of the Shrew in Hart Park. "Mom, I like the play, but which one is William Shakespeare?"
"Avrielle, You have been really quiet since the debate has been on, do you have any questions about what is going on or what they are talking about?" She look over to us very seriously, and said,"Mom, I think I understand what they are saying, but I only have one question. How can they stand there and talk so long without having to pee?"